Is anybody there?

You know how the grinch's heart was three sizes too small? I sometimes feel like I'm the opposite of him. My heart is too big for me to handle. A lot of times I try my hardest to make sure that everyone's happy, even if it means forgetting about myself and about how I feel. Not get me wrong, thinking of others is the way people should think but there's a difference between having a big heart and caring a lot and letting people take advantage of your kindness. Just saying this, i feel Luke such a sucky person because God himself shows me so much mercy and grace over and over again and I complain when people hurt me. It's like I sometimes feel bad for things that are completely out of control, or sometimes I feel guilty and try to change something that's out of my hands. I know I'm not alone, but sometimes it feels like I try and try to make others happy and I forget about what I really want. I'm not trying to play the victim, I promise, I'm just spilling my thoughts out. People tell me that it's good that I care, but I don't think it's good that I care too much. One of my good friends once told me that sometimes you have to put yourself first and not let others' negativity and drama bring you down. I'm not gonna lie, at first I felt like it was impossible but lately I've been trying to not dwell on others' negativity about me or towards me because most of those people don't know much about me anyways so it doesn't matter. But I guess it's a working progress, right? right. Well, thanks for reading, whoever you are :)