So many changes, so little time

Have you ever gotten to a point where you take a second to think about life and you realize how much everything has changed? I know it's been a while since I've updated this but a lot has changed in just a month. I've graduated from high school, I've gotten a tattoo, I've lost contact with friends who I was close with during the year, I've made new friends, I've rekindled with old friends, I've lost a boyfriend/best friend, my manager left and now my co-workers and I have to get used to new ways of working and new rules, I've been accepted into college and will soon start shopping for dorm materials.. It sounds like a lot, right? As I write this I feel like it's all so overwhelming. The only way that I can even say that I've gotten through it all is with the help of God. It's weird because just a few months ago everything was great. I felt like life was exactly where it needed to be, but I realized that I was still in such an immature mindset. In just two months I'll be a college student, it's that time if my life where I have to focus on myself and really get myself together and start becoming an adult. I mean, obviously I'm still going to be fun and bubbly but when it comes to making decisions I have to realize that I have to focus on what's best for me, not only what's best for everyone else. Recently I've had to make decisions that I knew would hurt others and it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I've always put others before myself and based my decisions on how they would feel but I've come to realize, with the help of friends, that I need to put myself first for once. And although I know that people were hurt because of my decisions, I know that it was for the best for both me and those that were hurt. Growing up sucks. So many decisions are put in your way and so many emotions are in your way as well and it seems like the end of the world, but at the end of the day after the decision is made, there's a sense of peace that calms me down. I used to feel like the world was on my shoulders because of all the burdens I carried for myself and others but now I realize that it's not always my job to do that. I can be a leader and a friend and a listener but I now know that God is the only one strong enough to handle so much. And quite frankly, I'm perfectly ok with that. As much as I hate all ofnthe changes that have been occuring lately, I'm excited to see what's in store for my life. Im excited to see the new friends I'll make that will be there through it all and even the friends that will hurt me. I'm excited to pursue my dreams and work my butt off to achieve everything that I want to. There are no limits to what I can accomplish and I'm so excited :) I'll make sure to keep updating this blog, I know I've been slacking. Thais for reading!