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Sunday, May 22, 2011

My life will soon change completely

As the final week of school approaches, it's finally beginning to hit me that in about two weeks I'll be completely done with high school. Graduation is coming up so quickly and it feels weird to say that I'll probably lose contact with most of the people who I consider myself friends with today. A few weeks ago and even last week I kept saying how it hadn't hit me that I was graduating and that everything was going to change but now it is. It's so weird to think that at the end of August i'll be entering a completely new environment with people I know nothing about. I'll have to form new friendships and gain trust in people all over again. I guess it's a good thing because it's a fresh start and a new beginning. People will be able to get to know me for who I really am and not judge me based on my past or based on what they think they know about me and my life. Also, it'll be a way to open myself up to different people and the different cultures that there are around the world because this tiny town is definitely not what you would consider diverse.
It's honestly one of the scariest things to think about, though .The fact that this time next year my life will be completely different. I'll have different friends, different jobs, different hobbies and so much more. It's weird to think of myself not waking up to be at school for 7:40 and going through the motions of high school. I've always heard that the friends you meet in college are the ones that will be with you for a long time but it's going to be so intense moving into my dorm and having to get acquainted with my roommate and the school itself. That's another thing: my roommate. What if I get one of those roommates who's super clingy or really shy and I scare her away? It's so many different emotions at once; excitement, fear, anticipation, worry, and so much more. I think the biggest change, though, will be the independence that I will gain as the year progresses. I'll be on my own for so much. I mean, I know that my parents will always be there but once I get to college, i'll be living far from them and won't have them there with me everyday like I do now. I feel like it will make me appreciate them so much more and also learn more about myself and I'll be able to compare how independent I am now with how independent i'll be then. It's crazy to think about it all. Hopefully all of this makes sense; it's been on my mind for so long that I feel like its going to be just nonsense on this post LOL but anyways, I hope you all enjoyed it ! xoxo