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trust: reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc. of a person or thing; confidence. |
Who do you really trust? Think about it for a second...Is there one person who you can tell absolutely anything to? Someone who hasn't let you down, someone who's always been there and never told another person your secrets? Someone who you know for a fact won't judge you for what you do or say? Hmm.. how many people came to mind? For me, it was about 5 people. It's pretty sad that out of all the people that I talk to, only that few come to mind. It's such a tough topic to even bring up because it's scary. I'm honestly petrified of putting all of my trust in someone. People these days are so hurtful and mean that you never know when someone could completely turn their backs on you and betray you. It's hard to have reliance on someone's integrity when so many people hurt eachother everyday. It sucks to think about, but one of the only people who has all of my trust is God. He's never going to let me down and will always love me for who I am, how many other people are going to love me regardless of my mistakes? Not many. I'm not saying that I don't trust anyone, because I obviously do, but it's so hard to build trust in someone. It's so easy to lose trust in someone though, I know that's true. Like, if I trusted someone and they completely lost it, it takes a lot to gain it back. After my trust is lost, it has to be proven that the person deserves to have it back. I know i'm not alone when I say this either, because so many people that i've talked to feel the same way. Why would you give someone your trust if you don't think they deserve it? Also, people are always changing, so its hard to know who to even trust. A person can be a certain way on one day and then be completely changed the next. Maybe they got a boyfriend or hang out with a new crowd; there's always that fear that they'll tell everyone what you say or just judge you because they don't see things like you do or just don't understand where you're coming from. Maybe it's ignorant or stupid not to trust people, but i'd rather protect myself from getting hurt than to just trust anyone that comes in my path. There are certain people that i kind-of trust but not fully. I'm not even sure why it's that way. I guess you can tell a lot about a person once you get to know them, which makes you cautious of what you tell them. For example: there's a person who I used to be super close with; we hung out all the time and talked about absolutely anything. Then, after a while they started hanging out with new people AND entered a relationship then our friendship drifted apart and we soon hardly talked. I didn't lose all of my trust in them, but obviously some of it was lost. If you can just walk away from a friendship because of a relationship or new group of friends, why should I give you all of my trust? Hmm.. good question, huh?
A word of advice that I once got from my aunt one day will stay with me for the rest of my life. She said
"Jessy, never give 100% of yourself to anyone besides God, because he deserves 110% from you and not only that but if you give 98% of yourself to everyone, when they hurt you at least you have that 2% to help you get back up." Intense right? The funny thing is that as I thought about it, I realized that I would have so much more strength to get back up, because the 2% of myself won't mean anything compared to the strength that God would give me to rise up again, right? YUP! Hope everyone has a good night :) Be safe on those roads in the morning, they'll be slippery!
