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| "He must become greater; I must become less" John 3:30 |
A lot of times, when I'm having a rough day, I tend to blame it on God. I always ask, "God, why me?" or "God what are you doing?" and honestly after a while I feel stupid.
Who am I to ask God what He's doing with my life? I'm so focused on myself and what I can do to make sure that everything's okay and I forget how great and mighty He is. Everything that has happened in my life has happened because God has allowed it to. Obviously everything's not going to be perfect, there are going to be storms. What's a tiny problem compared to God, though? I'm not suffering death on a cross for anyone. It's the direct opposite. He tells me directly in His word that He has plans to prosper me and not harm me. so WHY am I worrying so much? God is so much more important than anything in my life and I just overlook Him because I think "Well, God's always going to be there. He can wait."
NO, HE CAN'T WAIT. He's done so much for me and He's blessed me in ways that I wouldn't ever imagine. How can I just ignore Him like that? I get so mad at myself because He deserves my life, my attention, my devotion and everything else. How can I not give Him the time of day after He's saved my family, my friends and so much more? He cares and loves me despite the sins that I committ daily. Really? Things like this make me want to cry, because I don't deserve to be loved by Him. I don't even deserve to be living, yet I am. I'm living and healthy with a house, family, food every day, an education and everything I could possibly need. I feel so selfish because I overlook everything that I've been blessed with. Sorry, God. Seriously, though. If anyone doesn't agree with this, that's fine, but I'm making a change and truly devoting my entire life to pleasing my God and only him. That's what i've been called to do. <3
