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Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Forget regret, or life is yours to miss

There aren't words to express how sad I am, today. It's crazy to think that someone I just talked to a few weeks ago is now gone. It's selfish of me to say that I wish I could have talked to him one more time, or that I wish I could have gone to see him for the last time, but that's what I'm feeling. I know that now, he is in no pain and will be watching over his friends and family for the years to come.
David taught me that life is too short to worry about what people think of you or what people say about you behind your back. He taught me that one smile can change someone's day and that we should NEVER be selfish enough to keep our smiles to ourselves. Whenever I saw him working, regardless of the kind of day he was having, he had a positive attitude. He was either singing or telling a joke or telling me about his love life. He gave me advice about what kind of clothes to wear, what perfume I should buy and how to stay away from assholes. It worked, too.
Most importantly though, he taught me to use my talents and gifts and to not hold back from saying what I needed to say or doing what I needed to do in order to succeed. I wish I could hug him for one last time and tell him that he smelled good and that he was so cute, but I can't and I need to be ok with that. I'll never forget him telling me that I would make the best boyfriend to any gay man on this planet, and I'll never forget him telling me that I was "too cute" for all of the boys that were causing me problems. He changed so many lives with his attitude and personality and I'll always carry him with me in all that I do. I love you, Davey boo and I promise to carry on your divalicious legacy. *pinky swear*