These past few months have been very challenging. VERY challenging. I've finished my freshman year of college and it seems like along with that comes so much responsibility. It's crazy how time flies. It seems like I graduated from high school last week but I'm already going into my sophomore year of college. I've learned a lot these past few months, though. I've learned things that are going to get me far in life. I've learned that everything changes really fast. One day you're having fun with your friends at school and the next day it's time to pack up and leave, knowing that some of them you probably won't see ever again. I've learned that with time, people change too. Attitudes change, relationships change and personalities change, and not everyone is who you thought they were. I've learned that there comes a point where you have to focus on yourself and what you need to do for yourself, and everything else will fall into place. SO many times this year I was focusing on the well-being of others way more than my own well-being. Don't get me wrong, it's good to care about others, but there's also a time when you have to focus on YOU. Trust me, it's important.
I think that one of the most important lessons that I've learned is to lean on the wisdom of God rather than my own. There's not much that will get accomplished if I follow my own intuition rather than my Father's. The reason why a lot of this year was so challenging was because I was trying to solve things on my own rather than trusting in the One who knows best. It's crazy because one small step of faith can take you SO far. The Word of God says that faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains. & here I am, feeling overwhelmed and stressed out because the things that I was trying to do weren't working. It was a tough lesson to learn because through the lesson I lost friends, was hurt, was betrayed and at times felt absolutely lost; but here I am now, with my life completely surrendered to the One who gave it to me in the first place. Intense, right?